Whenever I see something interesting
Or have a question
When I want to talk about someone
Or share an idea
A discovery I made, however small
I converse with you (in my mind)
I imagine your laugh, a turn of phrase
And you are not far away anymore.
When I close my eyes
I picture your smile
The way you used to look at me
With pride and affection, amusement maybe?
There is a lurch in my stomach I cannot explain
Tears threaten to form in my eyes, an obstruction in my throat
I almost forgot – you are not here.
Leaping across time and space
I retrieve a memory from our shared past
Or build our future with the visions in my head
You are right next to me, and I won’t believe anyone who says otherwise.