Now that I’m unemployed (yet again), and my laptop has stopped working, I suddenly have more time than I strictly need. That is, I’m unable to watch movies (with alarming frequency) and season after season of American television shows. I get to come up with innovative ways to pass my time (no, I’m never bored). So I bake (using eggs) and drive my mother a tiny bit over the edge (adventurous, am I not?). I went and bought a book of Urdu poetry and felt very pretentious while doing so. In fact, I imagined everyone at the store looking at me with suspicion – “There goes an impostor.” But I’m enjoying the poetry (and before you think I am a brilliant polyglot, let me tell you the poems are in Hindi script in addition to the Urdu script, and the English translations are printed alongside). Also, I was wondering if this could mean I’ve evolved as a person. Then I thought, an evolved person wouldn’t be thinking that in the first place.
Did you hear there is going to be a letter writing contest? To use a cliche, letter writing is a dying art. (Is it already dead?) This makes me sad. I’ve always loved writing (and receiving) letters – cue *gasp*. And I’m the only such person I know (apart from a couple of people who agree to write back to me, of course). Isn’t there something calming about sitting down and choosing a pen to write with, and watching all those words pour out? What about the anticipation, and then the pleasure as you come back home to find a reply waiting to be read? Of course, I could message these very people on GTalk too (and would they be relieved I finally let go of my obsession?). I cannot believe how used we have all become to instant gratification. I was typing out a long email to a friend, and I was asked, Do people even do that anymore? This makes me sadder.
One of my pet projects of late involves asking unsuspecting friends and family members what they think success means. Turns out most people equate money with success. Some people seem to think you are successful if you are happy or if your career is on track. I am undecided as of now, seeing how I do not possess any of those things. Your feedback is welcome. 😀